(you'll understand this later)

Sorry guys!!! I know I haven't posted for a long time already. I'm here now, posting about my life, when I was in Thailand, and back.

My life in thailand wasn't good, as it always hasn't. The post before this one can help explain why very clearly. And there were afew crying parts I didn't add in, because I didn't want people to worry for me. Unluckily, some people found out and started to worry badly or me. I had to stop their worries, and tell them I was fine. My brothers all stood next to me when I was in pain. I couldn't thank them for standing by my side when I needed them.

But the sad thing was that not only were my brothers suppose to stand by me, there was some other special person that should be too. And he should be really close too. Some people even pity me for staying with him through all these tough times. Then I to start reminding myself, telling myself that it wasn't true that staying with him is a pity. Rather, it was a fortune to have met a guy like him. I had to keep reminding myself that I was the one who chose to be with him. And to be with him will be all I want. Something happened to us when in the cinema. I wanted to blog about it but when I tried to, the whole thing got deleted when I was publishing it. And because my memory sucks badly, I decided not to write it again as I know it'll remind me of how I felt during that time, and I know I won't be happy reading this post.

Well, it was supposed to be posted on Christmas eve, but I as I had said, the post got deleted when I was publishing it. And I had to spend the rest of the time with my family and stuff. When I got all my presents and everything, I went up to the attic again to do the puzzle my kor kor bought for me. It was what I really wished for christmas and he made an effort to get something that big for me. I really appreciated it. It was the puzzle of 6 disney babies. I will treasure it for a long time to come. It's because I have 6 people I consider my sons and they all matter alot to me. I doubt without them, I will never be able to survive with their father for so long. I'm going to finish doing it today and I'll get it framed on monday. My christmas has never been so happy.

And I posted late because on christmas, I stayed a long time at my god bro's house, which was only a small walk away from my NCC headquarters. So it was a fond place for me to go. And when my parents wanted to go back home, I thought it was still too early, so my brother and I stayed back while my parents went back with my baby brother. Then I stayed and played psp with my god bro. Then we had a small game of spastic, speed and 21. It was really fun. Then we got abit bored so we went to turn on the electone. We had some fun playing with it. We got bored then we went to book a one hour slot for the tennis court to play. The reason I wanted to learn how to play tennis is because I was given a tennis racket by my uncle. So I didn't want it to go to waste. While waiting for our time slot, Jia Sheng, my brother and I started playing poker and our money were all uno cards. After we had our games, we went to the tennis court to play. I was practicing while they threw balls at me to hit. Then we had some 1 to 1 games. I hit some of the balls too hard that they bounce out of the court and all over the place. There was also one ball which I hit, and it hit the lampost, which it then hit one red car, and then it bounced to somewhere near a ventilator. Now, the ball is stuck at the second storey of some block. Haha. After our game, we went back and played more poker and psp. Then we had our dinner and waited for our parents to come here. While then, we planned a tennis outdoor thing on sunday. With my god bro's family and some other friends. Going to have lots of fun on sunday. And we are also planning to go to Batam to fish at the kelong there. Going to be super fun. But the bad thing is that I'll be the only girl there with the same bunch of tennis people. First time for me though. Going to be a good experience. Hope it doesn't fall on monday, because I need to go to school for NCC, then PSL, then I need to buy my books. But it'll be fine with me if I have to miss that day. I don't mind.

Anyway, I'm going to a concert tomorrow with Ben and some friends, so I'll have to talk my dad to allow me to skip the swimming lesson I have. I can die in my swimming lesson. Hope to see school open again. I have to say our new uniform is really nice. It's white and blue now. And the pe is translucent, so guys, please don't drool over it. Haha.

We love tennis!!!

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