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Rytha Rytha Lew Chiu Min 劉秋敏 21/06/1994 lionheaddragonclaw@hotmail.com Nan Chiau Primary School(graduated) Peicai Secondary School 4F '10 Female Past Interact Club President NCC(Sea) Staff Sergeant Kayaker Adidas Lover [In my world, take backs only happen once.] [You found my blog? Good, that means you know where you stand.] |
I have a mouth for a reason
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Thursday, November 19, 2009 1:18 PM
I'm damn obsessed now..... WHAT SHOULD I DO??? And I can't bear waiting for so long. I'm hurting inside real bad right now.......... What should I do now? I've fallen in love with Jevons that it actually hurts to see that he doesn't talk to me much or hasn't even asked me the question. I really enjoyed the chalet a lot and I really enjoyed my time with you a lot, but I didn't succeed in what I was hoping for. I just wish you wouldn't have to drag this so long. Justin was by my side trying to help you get over all this confusion, but it seems like it didn't work and is also making me confused as well. I just want this pain to somehow stop, and that I could just spend time with you like during the chalet. And that I could hold your hand and walk around freely and to kiss anywhere we wanted to, not just under the blanket. I want these moments to rerun, except that the question would just pop out and it would be the end of all this confusion. I just want a clear confirmation. Because I've fallen in love with you and I can't stop thinking about you. I sound really desperate, and I am, but I just can't help it because this is how I feel about you. If you feel uncomfortable with it, you could always say so and I'll back off. All I just want is that you would be comfortable with what you are now and that I do not want to be a burden to you. ... thanks to justin, I managed to get this close. I just want to go a little more closer. Wednesday, November 11, 2009 9:01 PM
I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT ME. I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT HOW YOU BITCH ABOUT ME. I'M NOT AFFECTED, NEITHER IS ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU. I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK I'M A SLUT OF ANY KIND, BUT WHO REALLY CARES. I'M JUST AN AVERAGE GIRL, SO WHY CAN'T GUYS JUST LIKE ME? YOU'RE THE ONE WHO ALWAYS FEELS INSECURE ABOUT EVERYTHING, INCLUDING YOURSELF. FOR ONCE, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF. DON'T BE AN IDIOT ANYMORE.
Sunday, November 1, 2009 11:24 PM
I know some people, after reading this post, is going to say, "haha, serves you right" or "I already told you" or "there it goes again". Well, say all you want. You people know that everybody will get upset some time.Please, only the one who's suppose to read this, please read it. You know who you are. I wrote those things on my pm, thinking that you would at least know how I feel. I say I want to make myself happy, it's because I don't want to be dragged down by you. I know you feel upset too, but don't you think I'm also really upset because of you? I smsed you on your birthday, at least hoping for a reply. Or even a call from a pay phone or something. I hated the feeling when you don't want to talk to me or you just run away without telling me everything. And I really hated it when you lied to me. I don't want you to be pulled down by your parents all the time. You don't even dare to talk to me online. You don't even say good morning or anything. You just scold me upfront. Do you think I wanted all this? The moment you look at me, your face just turns black. You know that I love you. Yet you don't even dare to say you love me. I don't know whether if you're with another girl or what, but you don't know how much it hurts when you don't even sms me for the past week. Or even talk to me online. Everyone knows who you are to me. You might not trust them, but you should at least know that they've been there for you all these time. You just don't bloody care. You don't care if I cried because you called me a bitch. You don't care if I cried because you just said sorry and I had to forgive you because you are you. You don't care if I hated the fact that your parents hold me back from being with you. So what do you care about? You care about yourself. Only you. And your so called future. For yourself. I just want my future to be at least about you, or at least with other people. Why can't you at least do just that? You would give me up for your future, and you would give me up just for the sake of keeping your parents happy. I have been giving and giving in this relationship, so why can't you just do the same? For God's sake, I don't even get to talk to you face to face. So why can't you just be a man and just do something about it? I don't want to keep on getting hurt. I've gotten so used to it that I cry 4 times more than I ever did in my whole life. I just want you to love me, and prove to everyone that you love me. For once, make the effort. You don't even make the effort to get away from your parents just to be with me. Please, just do it for my sake. You used to do it, so why can't you do it now? You used to say "I love you", why can't you do it now? Just do it once more for me. It won't cost you anything. Well, kayaking was so bloody fun with the twins, ginseng, shit, Sam, Justinki, and the handsome medic. Going to hold a bowling one soon. Call all to join. Best fun we'll ever have. Oh, and by the way, my camera is dead gone and never coming back, so let's pray it'll go to heaven and all the pictures we took be stuck in our memories forever(: 9:57 AM
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