1. Gavin: without you, he wouldn't have linked up to me.

2. Mark Zuckerberg, for creating facebook, a portal for him to know me in the first place and add me.

3. That God gave me such kinds of attitude and behaviour similar to his.

4. God gave me a chance to know a guy like him.

I'm sick, I can't sleep, my chest is inflamed and I'm alone. Every time, wonder why it's always you in my head. I hate you, I really do, but it just keeps bothering me day and night. I hate you. A lot. It just snaps back into my mind all the time. It's been almost a week, and I still can't let it go. I can't let it go, I just can't. I'm not able to let go, at least not yet. It's human nature, it's my nature, to not let go, at least without any remorse. Even if letting go was my fault, I would be upset, even guilty. But you don't feeling anything, no shit at all. You don't feel pain, you don't feel useless, unwilling, unable to do anything while a person you care for and loved walk away heartlessly.

I hate you. I can't let go of you. I want you to say sorry. Properly. My head is being driven nuts by you. I wanna cry yet I can't. I feel alone. I want distractions yet I can't because of the stupid shingles. I'm not allowed to work, I can't go out with friends, and do you know how shitty that feels? Alone, unable to do anything, friends unable to do anything about it? I'm a person who can't stand to be alone, and you should know that clearly. Yet you still left me when I was most lonely, where I didn't have my family, where I didn't have the company I needed. You have needs, what about me? You thought about the best of yourself, what about me? You selfish ass, you only thought about yourself.

I'm sick, I'm alone, I'm upset. Does that make you happy now? Thanks for wasting my time, fooling me, making me sacrifice for an asshole like you. Shingles suck, but you're worse. You made me suffer. Shingles were just a small side problem in life. It may be painful but I had myself to blame. You were a mistake. The time I had with you wasted me away.

I didn't choose to hate you, I just do. You chose to make hurt me, not that you were even thinking about it. If I see you on Thursday, you better watch out. I'm gonna punch you, even in your own school.