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Rytha Rytha Lew Chiu Min 劉秋敏 21/06/1994 lionheaddragonclaw@hotmail.com Nan Chiau Primary School(graduated) Peicai Secondary School 4F '10 Female Past Interact Club President NCC(Sea) Staff Sergeant Kayaker Adidas Lover [In my world, take backs only happen once.] [You found my blog? Good, that means you know where you stand.] |
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Saturday, October 25, 2008 9:10 AM
I was in PSL camp for 5 days. I was uncontactable, uncomfortabable, and I really hate the fact that he was only living afew blocks away and I couldn't see him.Then during the camp, my good friends, or what I would like to say ex good friends who treat me like shit, have been trying to kill my spirits while I was trying to bring their's up. It was really painful. No one knew I cried in camp. It was like they were using me. And it wasn't good, as they were making use of my softheartedness. They knew I would help them in any consequence, and everytime they asked me to do a favor, they would act like they were angels. Once the deed was done, they were back to becoming devils of the deepest pits. To say, I was literally in the pits of hell most of the time. The only thing that raised my spirits were the sec1s. They were the ones who were so happy. And everybody knew I loved children, or anyone younger than me. Haha. Alot of them, not even in my team, was like a good friend of mine. Making friends with them and interacting with them were fun and mostly enjoyable. Whereas for the times in hell, I only had alot of urge to quit PSL. But knowing I had a passion for PSL, allowing me to take care of the sec1s were a honor to me. And the second reason was that I knew Miss Tan and Miss Lim knew I had a chance in PSL, and that quitting would make them really unhappy. But the thing about next's years election for the 2 boards, the selection will be very unfair if the sec2s were able to make their choices. For those who I am talking about, you know who you are. If you're still unsure, just ask. At ast when I was out of that camp, which I thought mostly was a waste of time, I felt so relieved. But when we returned to school, my results just killed my spirits, like a knife going through my heart. I atleast got better than my mid year, of course, but was at the borderline of passing. Hopefully I'll get into a good class. But technically I'm still in express. Alot of them still don't know their class. Even me. All I can say is that someone got angry at me just because I forgot to pass in the HE homework. You should know how stressed I am already, being stuck in alot of positions that I do not want to be. And you still try to make fun of me and pull me down. What wrong have I done to make you two so angry? What is it that made you guys hate me? What is it that made you guys my best friends into such people? I just want to know the answer!! Ok, I wish to not speak of this anymore. It hurts me. Alot. So after camp, I went to play soccer with Randy. And I made new friends. yay. The game was really fun, even though I got alot of injuries. And I'm going to a concert around in ten minutes, so if anyone wants to join me, just call. And this post was to vent my anger. Hopefully I won't seem angry anymore to anyone. By the way, I'm starting to hate... you guys your actions your words being your friends being your slave being too soft hearted being away from my second family being away from friends being away from all my people having shitty grades not being smart but think too much going into alot of spacing out moods going overboard with thinking making people worry for me having to keep secrets so people won't suffer living a life which alot of people revolve around and get hurt Anymore unhappiness will drive me crazy, so I'll just end here. Btw, Nick, your blog is great^^ We love sec1s!!! |
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